Terrible night

Wahh and wow!
It's a truely terrible night for me..
I petrified and I scared!
I cried, I wiped my tears.
I felt so terrible
I felt so helpless
I hope just vanished into thin air.
Why am I so scared?
Why I felt terrible?
Why do I cried?
Cause i cared

*Sigh* Can't sleep and I meant it for surely..=(

2010 Year Top 10 Resolution

1) Listened to undang and learn how to drive =D
2) Find a job before the Spm result
3) 'Heal' my laziness
4) Try to eat some pork! (get rid from woo~ woo~)
5) Play hard and study hard hard hard!
6) Have a meaningful 2010 year (does something i like or loved)
7) Spent more€ time with my family and ehemp! XD
8) Held a gathering with friends
9) Brave enough to talk with Cally
10) Try not to disappoint my family and parents! =)

Secret Resolution
-Hope the *star* won't disappeared-

Wish me good luck la!
ALINA! good luck! XD

Wow! Savior? Or demon?

Haha! Today -- An unexpected date.
Having a funny date today. With my SAVIOR~ Han May indeed!
Haha! She rescued me from being drown in BOREDNESS..
Durh.. And also run away from Mama.. No need listen to her 'undang' XD
At first we planned to go to Gurney Plaza with another 2 girls and watch Cheekmunks.
Due to some problem the plan had canceled! T.T

HA! And don't know why at last we change to Greenlane Mcd ==
Gurney change to Mcd.. really pity nia!
And just two of us, HanMay and I.
We planned nothing, so just went there sit down, had a cup of Sprite and Curly Fries and playing TWO deck of poker cards! == Two deck...... She brought one and i brought one, in fact she's the one shouting she doesn't had poker card and ask me to bring. ==||

And durh! She's DEMON! She blew the cream powder onto my face!!
And while we playing 'Snap' and poker card, she just can't stop shouting or hooray-ing.
Cause she keep winning. Ok lor. And our voice very very very successfully attracted people's sight!! Thanks to han may. ==||

And then time flies! We gossiping and fooling and bla bla bla..
Then walk back! On the way back, she keep saying nonsense and it's funny.
And always s.s, then some people passing-by stared at us.. Thanks to her again.

Geez, make me quite sia sui today.
But having fun today too. =)
By the way, she's savior or demon? Who knows? HAHA

A nonsense article today..Bye~

When Somebody Loved Me

When somebody love me
Everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart
And when she was sad, i was there to dry her tears
And when she was happy so was i
When she loved me

Through the summer and the fall
We had each other that was all
Just she and I together like it was meant to be
And when she was lonely, I was there to comfort her
And i knew that she loved me

So the years went by I stayed the same
But she began to drift away, I was left alone
Still I waited for the day when she'd say "I will always love you"

Lonely and Forgotten never thought she'd look my way
She smiled at me and held me just like she used to do
When she loved me....=(

A song from -Toy Story-

一封温暖的简讯

ＳＰＭ，是我们中五生所谓的“终极”政府考试。
它的意义何在？
当然各人观点不同
我也无法给中型的评语

我大哥知道我为了它给了自己很多压力，特地sms来安慰我，祝福我。

At this stage of exam , you can just done nothing.
Just remember to keep a happy mood,
enjoyed your LAST public exam with all your dearly friends.
Then you'll surprised at how optimistic can help you more in exam.

内容摘自 016-4913997　的信箱里．


I choose to believe that optimistic can make a miracle to happen..
Thanks a lot..
Your encouragement had cheered me up..
Hopefully that's a miracle happen......... i do hope so.. =)

Best wishes from me to all of the form 5 students who taking EST papers tomorrow!!
Good luck!

* I taking EST too!! T_T wishing myself?! siao siao meh? XD


-14th musician-

我能怪谁？

很疲惫，很疲惫。
这两天都往图书馆跑。
为什么呢？为了要读书，但是去了那边读不怎么多嘛~
待在那边几小时连一课也读不完！！
讲话咯！讲话咯！讲这么多做么？！
是自己没有自制能力
是自己爱玩，爱讲话
这能怪谁？！

父母对自己的期望很高
很希望我拿到傲人的成绩！
谁不想？！但是似乎自己的惰性战胜了这个欲望
这又能怪谁？！

考试一天比一天近，心一天比一天慌。
我却一天比一天懒惰，提不起劲。
就算天生聪明的人，懒惰了，也是无法成功的。
我懒惰我懒惰我懒惰我懒惰我懒惰我懒惰！！
就是懒惰害了我！
我能怪谁？

今天看到朋友做add maths..
我真的很害怕很害怕。。
有一霎那，差一点，真的就这么差一点想要哭。
心很酸，很酸。
“我告诉你，你的add maths一定要拿A！”
这句话现在还饶在我耳际。

我害怕，我担心

但 我能怪谁？

失眠的渴望

专家说 人在夜晚的头脑最灵活的
所以如果我失眠也不出奇吧？

最近失眠的次数又增加了
有时我会在想 现在的我是否拥有真正的快乐？
如果当初各让一步，故事还会像现在吗？
还是冥冥中有了安排？
要我们大家经历一些事情，让自己非常懊悔的事情，背后的翼才能茁壮的成长？
做好准备，迎接未来的巨浪？
忆起以前种种的日子，就连一个比赛，一个演出，庆祝生日。
也能让我哭得一塌糊涂，乱七八糟。
中学生涯里，是你们让我经历这些的。
那些留下来得眼泪 都参杂着甜美与苦涩，渴望与心碎，热情与荒凉。
能让我感受到这些，我是否该感激呢？还是该埋怨？

当得到了快乐，却注定会失去，那么当初是否该接受那个“快乐”呢？
一旦接受了，又是否承受的了那即将失去“快乐”的痛苦呢？

但我相信很多人都会选择那短暂的快乐吧？
我，选择了曾经的快乐，现在的痛苦。
但自己是否能够承受？又能承受多久呢？
如今却只能利用表面的快乐来掩饰内心的疼痛。

那种疼痛，就像赤裸裸的站着，让冷风随意地侵蚀，刺冻了身子。
如果时光能够倒流，那该有多好。
至少不用一个人孤零零的被冷风侵蚀，至少还有你们为我挡了些许的冷风，
不让那颗心完全的冰冻....
如果这个夜里失眠的渴望能够实现，如果我和她还是好朋友，如果...如果....

但，已经没有了如果

The 14th Musician Of Ark

优在戏剧里

阔别了XX小时
本美女又来写废话鸟！
哇哈哈哈哈哈哈！
k lor!

本篇主题是U戏（优戏）
其实对于这个项目（项目？！）我犹豫了很久很久才决定要参加的咯！
原因很简单
就是.....我爱演嘛！！！
虽然有很多很多因素使我不想参
人事？！还是不好意思？！哈哈！不知道~ 就是由心生起的抗拒~ ^^

当然当然....
朋友们的参加也让我重新考虑....
就像我对朋友们说的
你们占了很大percentage
特别是brenda..but then she didn't join..T.T
Toh + Heng + Shun Shun = 50%
Brenda = 50%
哈哈！然后又有因素让我不想参,但是又很想演wor!!!
所以经过减减加加，加加埋埋 有65%！！
很多咯！所以就参了.....

或许有些许的贪婪，自私~
也有部分原因是为了她... but percentage很少罢了..
她是谁？她是我一段失去了的友谊 =)

The 14th Musician Of Ark =)